03 November 2011

October in a nut shell... Or egg shell.

I've been watching a LOT of Conan O'Brien lately. Not to mention Chopped, reruns of the office, The little couple.. To be honest, pretty much anything on TLC or the cooking channel. I guess that's what happens when you are awake half the night with a newborn. feeding, burping, changing diapers.
I have tried for the last couple weeks to blog but every time I click on "new post" and stare at the empty screen I lose all motivation. Maybe it is from lack of sleep, or maybe my brain is fried from too much late night television and I just can't bring myself to make out complete sentences. Or maybe because I have too much to blog about, that is seems so overwhelming.
Whatever the reason, I am posting now. And yes I am also watching Conan.
So now for an update.
Mckay is now over a MONTH old. With each baby time seems to slip away so much faster than the last. Maybe that is because more of my day is spent wiping bottoms, faces, and hands, kissing "owies" better, and explaining for the 100th time in a day the reason "why?". Also, Mckay has been such a different experience for us. Both Kennedy and Levi were very healthy babies. The labors were easy and without complication. Not the case with Mckay. the labor was...Well, it was. The first night home with Mckay was not much better. I was reading a book to Kennedy that night and I heard Judd screaming my name over and over. I thought to myself "good grief, be patient man". I got up and walked out of Kennedy's room, and there at the door stood Judd holding Mckay who was pale and covered in throw up. He wasn't breathing. I grabbed him from Judd, ran to his room and started suctioning his mouth out with the bulb syringe (aka"booger-sucker"). Thank you Army medic training for the quick reaction. Judd had been walking past his room and heard him gagging so he grabbed him. After he started breathing normally I just held him and sobbed. I was so tired from... well, everything. There are no words to describe the fear and sadness of knowing that you could have lost a child. None. The thoughts that ran through my head: what if Judd hadn't heard him?, what if we had been sleeping, if.. If. I didn't sleep that night. I had Judd move his crib into our room so I could have him right by me. I woke up to even the slightest sounds, and when I would fall asleep I would jerk awake from dreams of Mckay choking. It took a few days for me to calm down enough to feel comfortable just using the baby monitor at night.

At McKay's 2 week check up the doctor found a heart murmur and sent us straight to the cardiologist. We were at the hospital doing tests that day from noon until 5. After the 12 lead EKG the doctor came in and listened to his heart. He said "there are normal and abnormal murmurs. his falls into the category of abnormal." My heart sank. I began to wonder if I somehow caused this... After all I didn't know I was pregnant until I was 2 months along. I was working out like crazy, and I'm pretty sure I was eating sushi :).. All the little things I had done started running through my mind. We then went into another room for an ultrasound of his heart. I was prepared for the worst since the doctor had already told me he had a hole through his ventricle septum. After watching his little heart beat in black and white wondering what went wrong the doctor came in to look at a few structures more closely. He then said that he has a hole between his atria which is normal for babies, but is supposed to close within the first 24 hours after birth. On top of that he had a "kinked" left pulmonary artery, which is actually what was causing the murmur. Both, he said, should hopefully heal without intervention. We just have to watch him very closely for signs of heart failure or difficulty breathing. They'll continue to monitor his heart at his checkups, and if nothing changes within 6 months they are going to talk about what our options are.

Breath. Pictures. Change of subject.

I love baby feet :)

During the ultrasound

In other news Kennedy is loving preschool, and Levi loves the alone time he gets with mommy while she's gone. Judd took me biking for the first time in over a year and a half, and I didn't end up looking like this so I am pretty proud of myself.

Since the weather is getting colder we have been trying to spend as much time outside on the days that are nice. Mostly we ride our bikes :)

On the days we stay inside we find ways of entertaining ourselves. Tortilla chips anyone?

Elephants on parade. I found this little family of elephants in a line all over the house. They are fast little guys, and would make their way from one room to another in a matter of minutes. I can't tell you how many times they were crushed by my rear. Sorry Dumbo, didn't see you there.
Halloween was fun, although it was a lot like last year for me. I spent most of the time inside taking care of Mckay while Judd took the Kennedy and Levi around and handed out candy at the trunk or treat they do on our street. Is it just me or are kids getting more bratty year after year? I couldn't believe how many kids didn't even bother saying trick-or-treat, or thank you. Or how many bad looks I got when I plunked a piece of double bubble into their bags (yes, I know it's no Snickers or Kit Kat) BUT STILL... It was as if I had just stolen their candy and left them with a can of green beans.

Here was the best part of Halloween for me:

When we first put our chicken into his costume... Not too happy.

Off to preschool as a "dinosaur t-rex" She informs Judd that Dinosaurs can open doors. My sister made this costume. I love hand me downs.

Jameson and Kennedy

Our spooktacular (literally) last minute trunk or treat decorations. We went to the dentist before hand so I used their dental floss to hang them. Yes, I am resourceful.
That's all for now. Hope everyone had a wonderful October!


KT said...

1) I laughed real loud when i read, "Good grief, be patient man". Funny.
2) But then, Holy :( .....you guys have gone thru a ton w McKay. Props to Judd hearing and checking right away & to you for your quick response/medical training. Gives me chills reading that.
3) Yes, kids are more bratty these days. I would have acted like 'what are you here for?' if they didn't say trick or treat. Aaand added a 'you're welcome' as they left. Lil punks!
4) The pics of your kiddos in their halloween costumes...:) :) So so cute!!
5) The pic of Levi smiling on his bike w helmet: i want to pinch his face off! Ha :)

sisterwendy said...

I want to add ditto to KT's comments. My thoughts exactly. I can't believe how many scary moments you've had with McKay! He must be one tough little man to have gone through all this stuff. I love Levi in his chicken costume! What a crack up! And your elephants on parade are the coolest. Love you Leslie! Hang in there and never lose your sweet sense of humor! xoxoxoxo

Mom Z said...

Thanks for the halloween costume pictures. Kennedy didn't look quite as scary as she thought she would, in fact she looked adorable, but don't tell her that. Levi liked getting into his costume as much as Judd liked having his picture taken, the reaction is similar. Now I have enjoyed seeing all my beautiful grandchildren in their costumes.

Can't wait to see you all again and hug the stuffins out of those kids.

Mom Z

Missy said...

Wow, that is a very scary story. I really can't imagine what I would have done, it's good you are so quick on your feet.
Hopefully it's smooth sailing from here on out!